The other day I was doing the grocery shopping at my local store and walked past an enticing display of Kettle Chips–you know the ones, sea salt and vinegar, salt and black cracked pepper, sweet onion…mmmmmmm. As I continued walking down aisle 6, I began to experience something which felt akin to sorrow. I felt myself yearning for those chips and it was as if I was actually mourning the fact that I was going to go back, put a bag of sea salt and vinegar chips in my cart and consume said chips before arriving home.
Why was I mourning, you ask? Well, you see, I have been eating everything Ivan has been eating due to his desire to create an inhospitable environment to prostate cancer within his body. I’ve also been avoiding (just about) everything he has been avoiding and I have been feeling great! He’s lost nearly 30 pounds and I’ve probably lost 10 or so by now. Kettle Chips are not on the menu at the moment.
But just seeing them in the store started a hankering I realized I was going to give in to. And that made me sad.
“Wait just a minute!” I shouted inwardly.
Just because a part of me had a thought about going back, getting the chips, purchasing them and devouring them on my ride home did NOT mean I HAD to do that. It was interesting to reflect back and realize that usually when I begin to think this way, the actions just flow from the thoughts, even if there is a part of me which doesn’t want to give in to those thoughts. It is like the dog walking the owner!
I’m studying a lot lately about the mind and the brain. One of the things I read that I really liked had to do with disciplining our thoughts so that our minds are powerful, effective tools in our powerful, effective lives. Here was an opportunity for me to exercise that kind of discipline. I finished my shopping, turned my back on aisle 6, paid for my healthy groceries and left the store with a big smile and a light heart. My mind was a powerful, effective tool. It was a great feeling!